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Post by Raisa/Darkmoon on Mar 21, 2011 12:55:15 GMT -5
Zuko's kisses were all heat and fire, passion mixed with power. It was intoxicating and dizzying, and Raisa had felt herself slipping into them as if a drug had been poured into her fire wine. Velox was completely different. He was gentle and shy in ways Zuko was not, and his kiss was more cool breezes than scorching heat, more light hearted and less forceful. The last wisps of fire on her skin were cooled off by Velox's touch, so light and ephemeral that Raisa felt more like she was in a dream than awake. She smiled, it was just like Velox.
Raisa felt herself beginning to cry, though she thought that it was more out of joy than the twinge of sadness she felt. Velox would not leave her, and Zuko would give her power to protect her people. Her world seemed so much more hopeful than she ever thought it had any right to be, yet victory was so close all she had to do was chase it.
But there was still the problem of Velox and Zuko. She knew it was foolish to ask Velox to be her consort, especially when she'd known all along how he'd felt about her. Selfish, not foolish. She had been selfish. And how the Fire Lord would be watching her every move, and what if he felt threatened by Velox? Would a fight ensue?
"Velox," she said gently, pulling away. "Velox, I still feel so afraid of what will happen if Lord Zuko finds out about..." she didn't need to finish the sentance. "I just don't know how this is going to work. What are we going to do?"
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Post by Velox Sicarius on Mar 22, 2011 20:28:59 GMT -5
Velox was happy during the kiss, everything else in his mind blank except for that one person infront of him. It was blissful, it was joyful, and wonderful....and....it was not him. As Raisa pulled away, even as he sighed in disappointment, he knew it was the right thing to stop. Why did he feel so strange that he had kissed Raisa, when both of them had wanted it? What had changed so suddenly? Were both of their duties to the world so great that it out-weighed even love? The thing that, in stories, was supposed to always win? But no, this was the real-world. He wasn't some goody-goody protagonist in a story told by the bards, and love could not conquer all....atleast not for them. Life could never be so simple, as much as he wanted it to be. And he knew, no matter how much he looked at it, there was no way to for them to get everything they wanted. Things would be sacrificed.
"I...I don't know Raisa. I really don't know....I have no answers for this...." He said quietly, and sadly. He loved her, there was doubt in that. He hadn't outright and fully said it, but it was true. He had also loved his family, and other people as well. But through some event or another, they all seemed to disapeer from his life. It was hard each and everytime, and had given him a hard outer shell, and a weak inner one. He hated it, hated it of himself every second of his life. "We need time to think of what we want, and what we can accomplish....." he said plainly, though sadness still remained in his voice. As much as he didnt want to admit it, maybe time away would help them realize exactly what they wanted, both for themselves and for the people that depended on them. "Lets hold off on any plans, or goals, or...anything, until we next see each other. We both need time away to think....I'm not sure if I even know who I am anymore, let alone what I want...." Velox admitted, his head down. He sighed again, and leaned back, staring up at the ceiling, hoping Raisa didnt hate him for what he was suggesting. His version of soul searching and finding what he wanted would be joining the the underground tournament coming soon at Ba Sing Sey, to unload some anger, and maybe find a few triad.
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Post by Raisa/Darkmoon on Mar 23, 2011 7:33:11 GMT -5
Raisa sighed, though more out of relief than anything else. She was glad Velox had been the one to voice that opinion, not wanting to have to say it herself. He was right, as usual. Things were about to get infinitely more complicated, and above everything else they had to remember the political arrangement of this whole ordeal. They were trying to keep the peace - all three of them - and if they were going to achieve that then they had to be at peace with each other and working together. Otherwise their union was futile.
But, Raisa hated to admit it, she was only human, and couldn't entirely help her feelings for Velox and Zuko. What those feelings were, exactly, she had yet to find out. She had such a terrible time separating her responsibilities from her heart, and the two usually meshed in a tangled web that Raisa seemed to be eternally ensnared in.
"You're right. We should. Wait, I mean. It's probably best." She slumped rather ungracefully in her elegant gown, feeling like a child. "I don't even know what's best for me, or what I want. But I have to be on the right track - I'm doing what my people want, and that's making them happy. So that's a start, right?" She turned to Velox, confused and anxious. "Just... remember you won't see me for the better part of a month. I'll be here, with Lord Zuko. I am married to him, after all, and it's important for us to spend time together if we're going to rule together. I can probably persuade him to give me a week to myself before he comes to my palace, but he's going to want to spend time in my kingdom, too. We can't help rule if we don't know each others' nations." She didn't feel the need to add the fact that spending a month alone with Zuko might lead to even more complications for Velox.
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Post by Velox Sicarius on Mar 25, 2011 21:44:02 GMT -5
Velox nodded his head silently to Raisa's statement. Any hopes that the mood in the room would lighten were gone now. The nervousness and overwhelming situation ahead of them hung over them like a dense fog. It was unbearable, and its making him really just want to leave for awhile, to....get some fresh air. It would be a while till he saw Raisa again, but maybe that was what he really needed. Time alone, with some fresh air, to completely clear his head. It sounded like a wonderful idea, given that right now it felt like his mind was full of rocks and fire. "I know Raisa....and it will be a very long month. But, it is needed, and not just for you. I already have some plans as well...." He stopped, not revealing any further. He had revealed alot of himself to Raisa, but really, she only ever knew half of him. He was planning on finding a way to go back to his original self, the way he should be before all the tragedies. And, he did not want to worry Raisa by telling her was going to participate in a tournament. There was no need to mention that to her.
Standing up, Velox let out a deep breath as he walked in a small circle, glancing at the doorway. "I'm sure Zuko is waiting for you. It is probably best that we both get going. There is...much to do..." He said before going quiet. He was being consumed by the simple urge to just clear his head, and it wouldn't happen here. He needed air, sky, freedom. They would be rare in days to come, but right now he needed them. And yet he felt bad leaving Raisa. Would she be ok? Or, perhaps she would be fine without him, like the princess she was. Only she would know that answer to that mystery.
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Post by Raisa/Darkmoon on Mar 28, 2011 22:42:39 GMT -5
Raisa watched as Velox stood and walked away, leaving her where she sat on the floor, in a pile of silk and gems. Part of his action was like a slap in the face after his kiss, though the other part was like a tall old tree that had been leaning for ages, finally being blown down by the wind. She had expected him to reject her in some way, she knew it would happen all along. After all, what could she offer? She was a princess, bound by duty, married to another ruler, and unable to keep her consort happy for even a few brief minutes. And as if that nagging thought that had been present for so long in the back of her mind needed confirmation, Velox had just kissed her, stood and walk away, and suggested she leave. And it stung.
"Yes... you're right." She said, Velox's words registering with delay. A month apart. A month for them to test their bond. A month for her to be away, and return to find him absent, more than likely. Raisa was certain of her heart, though unfortunately she was also fairly certain that Velox's desires were as effervescent as the autumn winds, constantly blowing in all directions. She doubted that, without her around to constantly remind him of her, he would hold interest in her while she was gone, and the month apart would yet again prove an unwanted point.
She clambered to her feet, smoothing out her gown and trying to stand as primly as she could in front of her consort. "A month apart will be good. It will show me exactly what to believe." She left out her personal thoughts, as well as mentioning the fact that while she was gone, Velox could not leave the city. She highly doubted Velox would find palace life as a ruler suitable, being the Air Bender he was. She'd already told Shang-hui not to hesitate if he thought he needed to step in.
Seeing Velox was already to the exit, she turned to the opposite door that she had entered through only moments before and walked toward it, not pausing to look back. "I'll be returning to my husband now. Feel free to join the party, if you choose."
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Post by Velox Sicarius on Mar 29, 2011 12:53:08 GMT -5
ooc- not sure how else to end this so.... (thread closed)
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